Wow

18 months.  

A year and a half. 

So much has changed.  In me.  In Gavin.  In our lives together. 

Where has the time gone?  Wasn't it just yesterday?  How have I survived thus far?  

Some days its better.  Easier.  Some days its worse.  Harder.  It still isn't easy.

Some days its black.  Some days its grey.  It still isn't white.

What I would give to see him.  Feel him.  Hear him.  Speak to him.  Have him.

I have nothing more to say but Wow.  That's a long time.  And yet it isn't...

And I miss him.

And Love him.